It's been a few weeks and the poetry has slowed up while the clarity on life (and all things involved) has cleared up a bit.
I've been working a lot on the identity of my writing in combination with who I am, myself. I think that's an important journey to embark on and one I should have taken into consideration much earlier in this process. However, it's all in experience and I don't think I could ever be ready for what this career, what this lifestyle, will always surprise me with. In making decisions and opening my eyes up to who I truly am and what I want most has enabled me to clean up some parts of myself. I've been trying to neaten my social presence which is something I struggle with; it needs to coincide with who I am, not who I want to be and I think in accepting my current position I've made it much easier to move forward.
Poetry is still being written and I don't plan to dismiss that entirely, however I wish to redirect my focus onto the writing experience as a whole and how I can consistently branch out and try new things. I do plan to release a video or two in relation to my poetry, however this stems out of a realisation that written poetry can often be selfish and I am sick to death of being selfish. Instagram will also continue to find a poem or two, but my content on Channillo will be moving and changing very soon, possibly MyTrendingStories to follow.
Channillo has offered some incredible opportunities and I do not discredit that at all. Regardless, I feel my poetry is not something I value for money but for the freedom of voice. So, the decision has been made and slow descent was released on Channillo today as one of the last few pieces to grace it. I will, after another poem or two, be removing my series, Common Thistle from their site and reapplying for a new series of short stories; a new short story every month. The poems from Common Thistle will find their way into the world again, but I am excited to close old doors and open new ones for myself. I have already been working extensively on new pieces and new ideas and it's really freeing to take myself away from the verses and lines and focus on the whole picture, the whole story, every detail. I'm excited to see the results and where they will take me.
In regard to everything chapbook-related, bathroom sink is still being produced and dim lights, dim reality is due to raise from its current price to $7 on 1/01/20. This means if you want a copy at its current price you need to get in before New Years, however if you miss your chance there will be additional poem cards with every copy sold at its new price. bathroom sink will remain at cost price as promised when it was released and all other plans for chapbooks will be done up with the intention of making things more affordable for everyone involved.
It's been a long journey and, though it never really ends, it's an honour to be doing what I love everyday and to have found a career that challenges my philosophy every time I take a stab at it. I continue working, I continue looking for new opportunities, I keep writing and I keep loving every minute of it; what better life could I be leading?