This year has definitely been the most challenging yet. I honestly don't know sometimes how everything has moved to this space and how on Earth I am still breathing, still beating, still believing in something. Maybe I'm just not, maybe this is just adulthood; maybe all I know is this.
It's not been easy and I don't think I've been open enough in myself to admit that I'm not doing okay, that I'm not handling as much of what is going on as I could be and I definitely need to take this second for a deep breath and to extend myself as honestly as I can.
In this year, I have known life like never before. I have known loss in every facet of my life and I have come through it even warmer and more optimistic than I ever could.
2019 has been an incredible year of change and this is the kind of real change that burns your insides and leaves space for ash-loving flower. bathroom sink (and all the many faucets) captures this and I am so excited to be releasing a chapbook more in-tune with the person I am now, as opposed to the person I was holding onto.
This new chapbook, brutal in content but lighthearted in nature, aims to go to the core of self and drag out the most grubby and gruesome to remind you that dirty isn't all that bad; as long as it's honest. This concept has been sat on since the production of dim lights and it has been an incredible thrill to come at it so intensely over the last month and see so much success in everything we'd planned.
bathroom sink is already available for preorder, on this site for 25% off until the 14th of August, (just two days away!) exactly one week before release. We have already received numerous orders and are in the very final stages of production; it looks at this stage that everything will be set for release ahead of schedule! All preorders will come with an extra bathroom poem and hand-signed letter, similar to what was released with dim lights. Clearly, we're getting a chance to see our sales and marketing skills grow, the challenges from the first project being solved and even innovated through the next and all we can imagine is how much more we have to learn.
It is at this stage that I am slowly starting to see a direction in publishing and will be working toward establishing a strong team and possibly a name and ABN once the chapbooks have all cleared their sales. Please do get in contact, as always, if you wish to become a part or even just want to discuss the creation of a publishing company. It has been a long-standing dream for me to be creative, but to create only while in support of others and I believe opening an independent publishing house based in Australia for young and aspiring artists where the most authentic and honest voices can be vocalised and heard, maybe for the first time, would mean more to me than just writing alone. I would like to, annually and once established, a couple voices on our side, do a charity book of art and poetry and writing that raises money for different small and direct charities each year. I want to change the world, but what scares me most in this world is honesty and how afraid of it everyone has become. I want to make that change. I want to give that honesty and reality and wholesomeness back to people, stuff it down their throats; remind the big companies and big hives that there is always a place for art, always a place for rebellion and always a strength in thinking for yourself. The greatest power is information. Lets keep that accessible, right?
In succession to all of this, there has been very definitive talk of raising the price of dim lights, dim reality to a steady $5, possible $7 after this year This decision has been an incredibly tough one for me to make. Everyone I am involved with both personally and professionally has pushed me to value my work highly, that if I place that worth it will be received. However, this has come as a real challenge to the person I am and the writer I'd aspired to be. As much as the pricing of a piece of work does reflect the writer releasing, I feel it doesn't reflect the consumers and, to me, poetry is the one art that should be flowingly accessible, so accessible that you can sit at home with your thirty different self-published chapbooks or zines because most of them were either free or a couple bucks - because that's what writing for the people really is, right? However, this opinion of mine piggybacks off a much deeper need to feel like I shouldn't take up too much space - that I do not deserve more than I have - and regardless of how great that might seem for my writing, it's something I do need to address. To open up to myself and to honestly admit that I am part of a community of writers is to take credit where it is due but to remain humble where truly necessary.
For that reason, dim lights will raise in price due to the intense amount of work and money that was initially put into what I will always consider my first child. All of my other following chapbooks will be priced initially and will remain at their price as I have come to see the honest value in my work and how I can discount that just enough to be affordable, but not too much that I'm losing a great margin.
I think this decision, as well as many of the decisions that have been made over the last few months have been a sign of the growth I am making internally and the professionalism I'm starting to come at my work with. I have also received numerous emails in regard to guest contributions on my site and the choice to allow some of these bloggers to work toward something for me is a decision I make for the good of the community, not for the aesthetic of my site or the purpose of growing followers, but the fact that if somebody has enough guts to get in contact with me and can fit to my content well enough, then they've earned it and who am I to say no? For this reason, there will be a few guest posts on this blog, but I am currently doing my best to tweak everything to keep it honest, authentic and brutally real.
I thank everyone for all that they have offered me this year and all the years leading up to this. I cannot say it is without good progress and good change that I have struggled through everything I have. I now know and feel deeply in myself that I am loved and looked after not just by those left to say it, but by all of those that have energy that resonates within me, who look down from some cosmic star or space or knowledge and are proud of what I have become and what I have grown through to become this.
bathroom sink (and all the many faucets) is set for release in nine days and I could not be more proud of myself.
Thank you for reading, thank you for
Stay safe, stay honest,
Charlotte E.E. Griffiths
The cover and table of contents will be revealed over the course of the next month over on my instagram and there will obviously be a lot of news about pricing and how this MIGHT affect current prices for DLDR, but currently we're just doing our best to keep everyone excited and see if we can even source some locations for distribution.
If you have any questions or concepts to throw at me, please get in contact over on my instagram or feel free to send a contact form through. I have been VERY excited to get the news out and am always happy to go over any available details or discuss collaboration anytime!
SIDENOTE: I think I'm most excited for this chapbook because it presents me with an opportunity to do something important within a stricter amount of time; reigning my creativity in a bit. I don't know I've found anything more exciting and terrifying than dedicating myself to this career everyday, but it's definitely paying off, especially when I'm able to watch the lazy, unorganised writer turn into the driver, forward-thinking poet I am today.
Thank you, always, for the help and support.
There will be more here soon,
Charlotte E.E. Griffiths
It's been a busy few months with the release of Dimly Lit Room in Femagogy's May Issue and all the work toward new things. I'm definitely starting to recognise the beauty in how nothing ever stops and how there is only more expected. I think this is all a good thing. I think the push is all I ever needed to get through, get my mind off things.
As promised, a new, smaller chapbook is underway and, admittedly, I'd intended a lot more progress to have been made however can announce it will be ready for release MUCH closer to the first reveal than dldr ever was. The challenge of dim lights, dim reality gave me an incredible amount of insight toward self-publishing my own work and after years spent holding onto one thing, I've been trying to let go of smaller pieces to remind myself that not everything has to be prime, polished, perfect, but exist in the moment the way it should. That sounded a LOT easier than it was, admittedly.
The chapbooks are definitely in production regardless and when I say chapbooks, I mean multiple. It seems the only way I can tolerate making concepts in three or four small but poignant poems is by allowing myself the power to spread all of those concepts out and fully take a look into each individual poem. What I'm saying might be nonsense, but I think it's another reflection of how well writing, as any art form, aids in that exploration of self and values and something so intangible we sometimes forget it even exists.
I'm clearly on a very pleasant high today, can we tell?
Despite everything both nonsense and normal, there is a lot of movement in the new Newmarket house and many many new poems and features and submissions and releases will be taking place in the next few years. What I remind myself, every day now, is that in four years I have gone from single publishing to self published chapbook and feature in multiple organisations, contacts from different countries and states and at twenty one, I have so much more to travel.
I so am blessed to be here, blessed to be writing, blessed to have my words.
SIDENOTE: In the next year, there has been a lot of talk about expanding my readings from just family funerals to either public events or personal readings. dim lights was originally intended to be released with a public reading but I didn't feel we'd come prepared enough for a release party and reading. However, this push has meant that there's been a lot of planning about what might be best and at what age, stage and rage of my writing it should come. If you follow my poetry instagram, it will be one of the only places to reveal too much in regard to any readings, so if you don't, probably give it a quick glance every now and then if you're at all concerned. I am much better at reading than I admit but I think it comes down to a personal opinion of the society around me and a fear of letting myself get too involved. Regardless, there will be some version of my poetry that will eventually be graspable to the human ear and eye, not just in print, whether that does end up in a coffee shop, home or even a video. If you have anywhere you'd like to see me though, feel free to get in contact however you'd like. I'm always down for a challenge if it's presented.
Keep staying safe and staying more real and brutal and
honest and bloody than
(but only in the best ways, right?)
Charlotte E.E. Griffiths
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